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By: John Walker Pattison

Me and My Shadow

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Me and My Shadow – Memoirs of a Cancer Survivor is a brutally honest account of one teenager’s struggle to understand and deal with the most feared diagnosis known to society: cancer.


At 18 years of age, John Walker Pattison was thrust onto a roller coaster ride of emotional turbulence – his innocence cruelly stripped from him; his fate woven into the tapestry of life.


After years of failed chemotherapy and radiotherapy treatments that ravaged his physical frame and almost destroyed his psychological stability – his parents were told that he would not survive. Yet, today, he is one of the longest surviving cancer patients in the UK.


Eight years after his unexpected recovery, the news that all parents fear, his daughter is diagnosed with terminal leukaemia. Yet like her father, she too would defy the odds and go on to become an international swimmer.


Pattison turned his life full circle and became a cancer nurse specialist at the same hospital that made his diagnosis decades earlier. He prescribes chemotherapy and cares for individuals with the same cancers experienced by both him and his daughter.


Throughout his journey, Pattison’s inspirations were the space rock legends, Hawkwind. He would get to play on stage with his heroes at the Donnington Festival in 2007.


More significantly, he found solace throughout his cancer journey in the history and spirituality of the Lakota Sioux Nation. In 2018, he would spend time on Pine Ridge Indian Reservation with the indigenous people of South Dakota. The same people who, unknowingly, supported him through life's greatest challenge: cancer.

John Walker Pattison was born in the wonderful seaside town of South Shields 64 years ago.


He is a long-suffering but dedicated Newcastle United supporter; however, there is little doubt that the crucial hinge in John’s life is his beautiful wife, June, and his family. “Nothing is more important than family,” says John.


He recently retired from his post as a senior clinical nurse specialist in haematology at his local hospital, a place that established his cancer diagnosis in 1975; he is humbled to be one of the longest living cancer survivors in the UK at 46 years post diagnosis.


His interests include Native American photography and exploring parts of America unseen by tourists.

Customer Reviews
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24 reviews
24 reviews
  • The Table Read

    Me and My Shadow – Memoirs Of A Cancer Survivor takes the reader through the tumultuous years of Pattison’s youth, beginning at age 18, when most young adults are embarking on new and exciting adventures. Pattison found himself on a drastically different path marked by aggressive chemotherapy and radiotherapy treatments that tested the limits of his endurance, as he faced uncertainty, fear and what doctors told his family would be a death sentence.

  • blacktiemagazine.com

    In his compelling memoir, ‘Me and My Shadow’, author John Walker Pattison offers an unflinching and engaging look at his journey with cancer. Beginning at age 18, when most young adults are embarking on new and exciting adventures, Pattison found himself on a drastically different path - one marked by uncertainty, fear and what doctors told his family would be a death sentence. The memoir takes the reader through the tumultuous years of Pattison’s youth, marked by aggressive chemotherapy and radiotherapy treatments that tested the limits of his endurance, to a staggering blow that he never saw coming - the heart-wrenching moment when his daughter was diagnosed with terminal leukaemia, and like her father, defied the odds.

  • Literary Titan

    Me and My Shadow by John Walker Pattison is a deeply personal account of his lifelong journey with cancer, exploring his roles as a patient, father, and nurse. Pattison opens his story with a childhood overshadowed by a cancer diagnosis, a fact kept hidden by his parents. This narrative takes us through the complexities of his treatment, its enduring physical and psychological impacts, and the isolation from normal childhood experiences.

  • Lukas Morgan

    Once I picked up this book, I could not put it down. It is packed with heartfelt honesty and emotion and I defy anyone not to be touched by the author's incredible story. Possibly one of the best memoirs I have read and the ultimate survivorship story of overcoming all of the odds.

  • Abigail Armstrong

    A scintillating account of survivorship. Clearly written from the heart and demonstrates the power of resilience and inspiration. It was hard to imagine what this young man went through but full on to him.

  • L Branfield

    “The author weaves words together like a fine thread. We truly appreciate the adventure and life experience of John. It is very inspirational to those people who are struggling with a desease. It gives hope to many people and we feel that many readers will appreciate the message John is trying to portray. Kudos to John for being a strong and brave man."

  • Mary Sergiacomi

    Bravo John !!! I have to admire your excellent ability to overcome all the trials and tribulations that you
    dealt with while going through difficulties in your life, dealing with all your health situations!!! However,
    you kept an obvious determination to keep going and never give up!!! It takes strong determination
    to keep going the way you did to regain your health, and my admiration goes out to you!!!
    Still....it takes a person like you to brave the difficulties in life and I think you've proven you certainly
    have the ability to deal with life's difficulties and do it in such a successful way that I am certain you
    still have a long successful life to live.
    I hope your experiences have kept others able to follow suit and never give up! So God bless you
    John and I hope this finds you having a wonderful life.

    Love from Aunt Mary :)

  • Trevor Sinclair

    An unbelievable read, had me gripped from page 1. The author has a wonderful writing style and I felt I was on a journey with him.

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