A black Holden Caulfield reminisces on a life filled with emotional turmoil, from a childhood scarred by hardship to an adulthood tangled in complex relationships. He reflects on the systemic barriers and coping mechanisms that coloured his world across decades - the pain and vulnerability, trust issues and raw humanity. There was love, yet it never fully conquered the chaos.This fictional memoir gives words to the underrepresented, following an underdog who refuses to give up. It explores the immigrant experience of working tirelessly to overcome discrimination. The narrator clings to his father’s advice to study and gain knowledge as power. As he pets his bulldogs, he contemplates a past that shaped him, for better or worse. This is the story of one man’s perseverance through life’s unpredictable journey.